So Guys dont Suicide!!
There is an increasing rate in the number of suicides taking place by school and college students.I dont know for what reason are they doing this. As majority of suicides that have taken place are by students, the only reason for suicide that I could think of is “Pressure”. Pressure of studies,job, failure to meet high end goals set by parents for their ward and job.
But this does not mean that you end your life for this mere silly reasons.Wake-up guys, what are you doing?Life is really beautiful, enjoy every moment of it. Be an actve member of every phase it comes up with it.Whether it is good, bad, harsh or unsupporting in any format. Accept the challenge, give a tough fight to every problem, every failure. Let failure also know how tough you are and that and you wont surrender in front of any thing.
I find it very difficult to digest that students give up just because fear for failure, rather I think you should accept it with brave heart, analsye your mistakes, improve them and give your self a second chance.Since it is a very sensitive issue, I would like to reveal those untouched pages of my personal life experiences which I have never revealed yet. I dont know how successful I am yet…. but I still feel I should share some pages from this huge catalog(which I never wanted to).
My father being an Armed Force(an Engineer) retired personal, after retiring from Army he joined Indias giant Automobile Company as Electrical & Mechanical Engineer.Since he was from Army it was default that he was like “Angry young man”, because of which I used to find it difficult to speak with regarding my education, my weakness etc.But I knew My parents loved me a lot.English was the biggest problem for me,even though I was studying in convent school.I found it very difficult understand even simplest of things in school and I used to find myself in soup many times for home-work assistance.To add more bizzare to this I felt sick during exams. My parents never knew there is something called as “Re-Exam”. I failed during first year of my education.My serene and young brain could not understand what was going on..what is passing? what is failing?
Somehow I managed till standard fifth being an average back bencher student. But again here these average marks did not help clear that year…Yes I failed again for second time…OHH God what an insult..because by this time, I knew the difference between Passing & Failing…I broke down,felt the blot on my face, my parents also felt bad but they never made me realise this, but this caused more distraction for me because I expected them to shout at me but nothing as such happened. they wanted me myself to realise what mistake I have done.So I decided to study nicely, and yes next year managed to get 55 percentage and moved to sixth standard.
By now I was considered among the “Dumbest student” in the school.In order that I should learn something from my mistakes the teachers made me sit between two girls..but this created no effect on me.None of my teachers paid enough attention to me…and how can they pay attention to me as I never responded properly to teachings…It was like “Water on ducks back“. One day there was off lecture and P.T. Sir asked us to self-study, I asked something to girl(hhmmm…now you might have started taking interest) sitting next to me..but she complained to the professor as if i was irritating her…..Busss this awakened his virility, his manliness and he ordered the peon to get the “CANE“. Now “CANE” was word which i have just heard till these years but never seen..so got a chance to go for this treat also. So here the peon served the polished cane to him and professor asked me to come to the balcony and look at the crow.This guy was a firm believer of Newtons Law:”To every action there is an equal an opposite reaction” so he removed all his muscular strength to hit as hard as possible till he found the replication of the Cane on my legs(Reaction of his Muscular Action)….
I felt really humiliated for the first time and took a oath “That from now onwards no one will consider “LESS” atleast because of education, and I will defeat this girl in marks atleast by 1 percent in the coming semester“. Just got the right tonic at right time, and I started studying like mad..as if there were no goals remaining in my life other than defeating her. I never knew how to study rather how toppers study. I was just in sixth standard, but I used to get up at 4:00 am regulary and study till 7:am then school. Then again after school from 2:00 pm till 10:00 pm in night, with least knowledge of how to study and remember, as it was never my cup of tea…so just used to read chapters again and again.Yes I know you must dying to know about semester results right!! Yes guys for very first time in my life this dumb scored whopping 81.00%(ya...ya...I'm telling that how much she got, she scored something around 55%). Well the results not only amazed me but my teachers too.After that semester I never looked back. From then onwards in every prize distribution I bagged many certificates at school level as well at state level scholarship exams. I completed my final S.S.C. exams experiments well before time and it was those professors who always thought I made mockery of education asked me complete experiments of weaker students(since till then proffessors knew my talent).This saying goes true here that “Behind every successful Man there is a Woman“…Yes because of her I realized my mistakes…I analysed and studied them and most importantly I rectified them.
At my S.S.C exams I solved every possible question papers that were available in market, school library, friends and ofcourse model-question papers which used to come in marathi newspaper like “Maharashtra Times”, as language was not a barrier.. understanding and knowing different types of questions was more important for me. I was confident & well prepared..I know again you might be quite curious to know my score..well this time preparation fell bit-short and I had to satisfy with just 81.33%. My father got me a bike(he was happy with the result, my parents provided every happines but never pressurized me regarding studies)
Things were going easy, I took admission in Mumbai’s very good college St. Zaviers College, which might lure many tender brains to get admission into.I used good pocket-money as it was never a problem.Enjoyed first year of college with Movies,Masti,Magic and ofcourse studies sometimes. But due to machines & robos taking over human-being, company started reducing its employees.He lost his job and things went weird after this(but parents never reduced my pocket money and also never say NO to any of my requirements)….Tensions started builing in my brain, then I decided hence forth I will not utilse my parents money(which I thought probably they might have kept for their old-age) and study on my own money(Yes there was a big “NO” from parents, but I was succesful in convincing them that I would learn more and would come out as a better persons). I started cutting down my regural expenses.Slowly slowly I stopped taking money from them. Somehow my studies suffered & I cleared my 11th standard with mere 70%. In my H.S.C. I always thought of putting an axe on my education and start earning so as to shoulder my parents responsibility without letting them know of this..well one or two attempts were made but due to less age and qualification I couldnt fetch any.One of my friend told me that your problems will vanish if you become an Engineer…they earn a lot!! But for becoming engineer I had to score good in H.S.C so that was the only thing that I was thinking about every time…Somehow with this tensed environment I managed to get 76.17% and 80.66% in PCM(Not at all good for me). I went to Dehradun for getting admission in “Aeronautical Engineering“, but I didnt like the college. I just checked the fee structure for engineering….It was whopping 50,000 Rs/year…very much impossible for me achieve..But I never gave-up thought of work-around ,without letting my parents know I went to the bank for Educational Loan..but the Manager told me that He will provide loan but only after keeping some money or fixed-deposit as guarantee(I hope he could understand, if I would have had money why would I have asked him). Now what to do…BIG Question Mark in front of my dream(of becoming an Engineer)…went insane, but I never knew to give-up and commit suicide, as if that was the only solutions even to the wildest of the question. I decided that I will work for a year and shoulder my parents responsibilty as well as accumulate small-small amounts so that next year I would pay to the bank for Educational Loan.
My first job, working for a medical for 2,000/- Rs,. I utilized my brains over here & increased the per-day sales income from 200/- Rsto 1700-1800 Rs. ..Ya I know the question coming to your non-accepting brain..This shop was located on first floor so very few people could see it or know it…So one day I asked someone to destribute the medicines pamplet with shops address stamp…and expected miracle happened…Boost in business(Business Law: Jo dikhega woh bikega ).Then someone told me about an opening in Cinema Vision India(ya that same “Surabhi” program hosted by Siddharth Kak & Renuka Shahne)..worked as Logger(like Asst. Editor) earned something in range of 3,000-4,500/- Rs(with rate 30 Rs per tape)…bus then got the required amount by end of year..and went for Educational Loan.
Got admission in good Engineering college, under any circumstance I could not quit my job..So morning 9:00 am to 5:00 pm college ,evening 6:30 pm to 10:00 pm job and study in the nights or Saturday-Sunday.To save money many a times(even after having a bike) I used to walk from house(Goregaon) to college(Malad, Mumbai) aroung 8KM then college to work(lokhandwala, Mumbai) around 12KM and again back home(4KM), so I used to walk around 20-24 KMs per day but never felt the pain,uncomfortableness as only goal was “Engineering..and fulfilling my parents all dreams!!”..Completed Engineering with first class..but the only thing I never wanted to do was “Sar Foding” the better synonym I invented for “Coding”.. You might be wandering what kind of job I am doing right now?? I wander how can you guess so right..”Coding on Java”..kyunki pehlese aadat hai jo nahi aata wohi kaam pehle karne ka.
One day in office I could not proceed with a certain piece of code..my senior told me “Forget it..you cannot do it” I dont know why people challenge me again & again..because challenges make my blood run into brain with double speed. As you know when brain gets good quantity of blood it works with good output(This law is made by me). I spent a restless night & I landed in office at 5:00 am quite early right…it was not for solving the problem but for knowing “Why I cant do… if he can“. I did not see anywhere else other than my monitor & that meeky code, by 9:45 am the issue was solved & I took a siegh of relief.
Now I am also pursuing MS(Software System) from BITS,Pilani and now I have also moved to another software company doing coding job for every bodies dream company….Infosys!!But what my dream is to acquire PhD. and work for “Google” as Software Architect…I know this time I am dreaming really Big(sorry too HUGE)..But if there are no challenges then life is a waste. I will consider myself successful only when I’ll achieve this dream, but that surely does not mean “I need to Suicide if I could not achieve this, some dreams are unreachable but giving your best shot in that direction is truely required”
So guys do not end your life for small reasons like studies, money, work-pressure..Remember one thing “Where there is WILL there is a way..if still it doesnt work then carve out a way for yourself ” but dont ever think of suiciding since thats not a solution, but a bigger question for your parents. And Best of Luck for new Beginning!!
I know there are many how many inspiring stories, which can help someone change their mindset of quiting..so if you have send it across to me by commenting, I will try to post it on my blog: http://nikaljesanjay.blog.co.in
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There is an increasing rate in the number of suicides taking place by school and college students.I dont know for what reason are they doing this. As majority of suicides that have taken place are by students, the only reason for suicide that I could think of is “Pressure”. Pressure of studies,job, failure to meet high end goals set by parents for their ward and job.
But this does not mean that you end your life for this mere silly reasons.Wake-up guys, what are you doing?Life is really beautiful, enjoy every moment of it. Be an actve member of every phase it comes up with it.Whether it is good, bad, harsh or unsupporting in any format. Accept the challenge, give a tough fight to every problem, every failure. Let failure also know how tough you are and that and you wont surrender in front of any thing.
I find it very difficult to digest that students give up just because fear for failure, rather I think you should accept it with brave heart, analsye your mistakes, improve them and give your self a second chance.Since it is a very sensitive issue, I would like to reveal those untouched pages of my personal life experiences which I have never revealed yet. I dont know how successful I am yet…. but I still feel I should share some pages from this huge catalog(which I never wanted to).
My father being an Armed Force(an Engineer) retired personal, after retiring from Army he joined Indias giant Automobile Company as Electrical & Mechanical Engineer.Since he was from Army it was default that he was like “Angry young man”, because of which I used to find it difficult to speak with regarding my education, my weakness etc.But I knew My parents loved me a lot.English was the biggest problem for me,even though I was studying in convent school.I found it very difficult understand even simplest of things in school and I used to find myself in soup many times for home-work assistance.To add more bizzare to this I felt sick during exams. My parents never knew there is something called as “Re-Exam”. I failed during first year of my education.My serene and young brain could not understand what was going on..what is passing? what is failing?
Somehow I managed till standard fifth being an average back bencher student. But again here these average marks did not help clear that year…Yes I failed again for second time…OHH God what an insult..because by this time, I knew the difference between Passing & Failing…I broke down,felt the blot on my face, my parents also felt bad but they never made me realise this, but this caused more distraction for me because I expected them to shout at me but nothing as such happened. they wanted me myself to realise what mistake I have done.So I decided to study nicely, and yes next year managed to get 55 percentage and moved to sixth standard.
By now I was considered among the “Dumbest student” in the school.In order that I should learn something from my mistakes the teachers made me sit between two girls..but this created no effect on me.None of my teachers paid enough attention to me…and how can they pay attention to me as I never responded properly to teachings…It was like “Water on ducks back“. One day there was off lecture and P.T. Sir asked us to self-study, I asked something to girl(hhmmm…now you might have started taking interest) sitting next to me..but she complained to the professor as if i was irritating her…..Busss this awakened his virility, his manliness and he ordered the peon to get the “CANE“. Now “CANE” was word which i have just heard till these years but never seen..so got a chance to go for this treat also. So here the peon served the polished cane to him and professor asked me to come to the balcony and look at the crow.This guy was a firm believer of Newtons Law:”To every action there is an equal an opposite reaction” so he removed all his muscular strength to hit as hard as possible till he found the replication of the Cane on my legs(Reaction of his Muscular Action)….
I felt really humiliated for the first time and took a oath “That from now onwards no one will consider “LESS” atleast because of education, and I will defeat this girl in marks atleast by 1 percent in the coming semester“. Just got the right tonic at right time, and I started studying like mad..as if there were no goals remaining in my life other than defeating her. I never knew how to study rather how toppers study. I was just in sixth standard, but I used to get up at 4:00 am regulary and study till 7:am then school. Then again after school from 2:00 pm till 10:00 pm in night, with least knowledge of how to study and remember, as it was never my cup of tea…so just used to read chapters again and again.Yes I know you must dying to know about semester results right!! Yes guys for very first time in my life this dumb scored whopping 81.00%(ya...ya...I'm telling that how much she got, she scored something around 55%). Well the results not only amazed me but my teachers too.After that semester I never looked back. From then onwards in every prize distribution I bagged many certificates at school level as well at state level scholarship exams. I completed my final S.S.C. exams experiments well before time and it was those professors who always thought I made mockery of education asked me complete experiments of weaker students(since till then proffessors knew my talent).This saying goes true here that “Behind every successful Man there is a Woman“…Yes because of her I realized my mistakes…I analysed and studied them and most importantly I rectified them.
At my S.S.C exams I solved every possible question papers that were available in market, school library, friends and ofcourse model-question papers which used to come in marathi newspaper like “Maharashtra Times”, as language was not a barrier.. understanding and knowing different types of questions was more important for me. I was confident & well prepared..I know again you might be quite curious to know my score..well this time preparation fell bit-short and I had to satisfy with just 81.33%. My father got me a bike(he was happy with the result, my parents provided every happines but never pressurized me regarding studies)
Things were going easy, I took admission in Mumbai’s very good college St. Zaviers College, which might lure many tender brains to get admission into.I used good pocket-money as it was never a problem.Enjoyed first year of college with Movies,Masti,Magic and ofcourse studies sometimes. But due to machines & robos taking over human-being, company started reducing its employees.He lost his job and things went weird after this(but parents never reduced my pocket money and also never say NO to any of my requirements)….Tensions started builing in my brain, then I decided hence forth I will not utilse my parents money(which I thought probably they might have kept for their old-age) and study on my own money(Yes there was a big “NO” from parents, but I was succesful in convincing them that I would learn more and would come out as a better persons). I started cutting down my regural expenses.Slowly slowly I stopped taking money from them. Somehow my studies suffered & I cleared my 11th standard with mere 70%. In my H.S.C. I always thought of putting an axe on my education and start earning so as to shoulder my parents responsibility without letting them know of this..well one or two attempts were made but due to less age and qualification I couldnt fetch any.One of my friend told me that your problems will vanish if you become an Engineer…they earn a lot!! But for becoming engineer I had to score good in H.S.C so that was the only thing that I was thinking about every time…Somehow with this tensed environment I managed to get 76.17% and 80.66% in PCM(Not at all good for me). I went to Dehradun for getting admission in “Aeronautical Engineering“, but I didnt like the college. I just checked the fee structure for engineering….It was whopping 50,000 Rs/year…very much impossible for me achieve..But I never gave-up thought of work-around ,without letting my parents know I went to the bank for Educational Loan..but the Manager told me that He will provide loan but only after keeping some money or fixed-deposit as guarantee(I hope he could understand, if I would have had money why would I have asked him). Now what to do…BIG Question Mark in front of my dream(of becoming an Engineer)…went insane, but I never knew to give-up and commit suicide, as if that was the only solutions even to the wildest of the question. I decided that I will work for a year and shoulder my parents responsibilty as well as accumulate small-small amounts so that next year I would pay to the bank for Educational Loan.
My first job, working for a medical for 2,000/- Rs,. I utilized my brains over here & increased the per-day sales income from 200/- Rsto 1700-1800 Rs. ..Ya I know the question coming to your non-accepting brain..This shop was located on first floor so very few people could see it or know it…So one day I asked someone to destribute the medicines pamplet with shops address stamp…and expected miracle happened…Boost in business(Business Law: Jo dikhega woh bikega ).Then someone told me about an opening in Cinema Vision India(ya that same “Surabhi” program hosted by Siddharth Kak & Renuka Shahne)..worked as Logger(like Asst. Editor) earned something in range of 3,000-4,500/- Rs(with rate 30 Rs per tape)…bus then got the required amount by end of year..and went for Educational Loan.
Got admission in good Engineering college, under any circumstance I could not quit my job..So morning 9:00 am to 5:00 pm college ,evening 6:30 pm to 10:00 pm job and study in the nights or Saturday-Sunday.To save money many a times(even after having a bike) I used to walk from house(Goregaon) to college(Malad, Mumbai) aroung 8KM then college to work(lokhandwala, Mumbai) around 12KM and again back home(4KM), so I used to walk around 20-24 KMs per day but never felt the pain,uncomfortableness as only goal was “Engineering..and fulfilling my parents all dreams!!”..Completed Engineering with first class..but the only thing I never wanted to do was “Sar Foding” the better synonym I invented for “Coding”.. You might be wandering what kind of job I am doing right now?? I wander how can you guess so right..”Coding on Java”..kyunki pehlese aadat hai jo nahi aata wohi kaam pehle karne ka.
One day in office I could not proceed with a certain piece of code..my senior told me “Forget it..you cannot do it” I dont know why people challenge me again & again..because challenges make my blood run into brain with double speed. As you know when brain gets good quantity of blood it works with good output(This law is made by me). I spent a restless night & I landed in office at 5:00 am quite early right…it was not for solving the problem but for knowing “Why I cant do… if he can“. I did not see anywhere else other than my monitor & that meeky code, by 9:45 am the issue was solved & I took a siegh of relief.
Now I am also pursuing MS(Software System) from BITS,Pilani and now I have also moved to another software company doing coding job for every bodies dream company….Infosys!!But what my dream is to acquire PhD. and work for “Google” as Software Architect…I know this time I am dreaming really Big(sorry too HUGE)..But if there are no challenges then life is a waste. I will consider myself successful only when I’ll achieve this dream, but that surely does not mean “I need to Suicide if I could not achieve this, some dreams are unreachable but giving your best shot in that direction is truely required”
So guys do not end your life for small reasons like studies, money, work-pressure..Remember one thing “Where there is WILL there is a way..if still it doesnt work then carve out a way for yourself ” but dont ever think of suiciding since thats not a solution, but a bigger question for your parents. And Best of Luck for new Beginning!!
I know there are many how many inspiring stories, which can help someone change their mindset of quiting..so if you have send it across to me by commenting, I will try to post it on my blog: http://nikaljesanjay.blog.co.in
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Tell a friend
Bury
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